“Knives Out” star Jamie Lee Curtis opened up about the truth behind her long term Vicodin addiction, how she kept it a secret from the world, and her first big wake up call during her cover shoot for Variety’s first ever Recovery Issue.

Curtis recalled a situation in December of 1998 in which her former Brazilian healer caught her as she took a handful of Vicodin with her wine as she prepared for the holidays. “From behind me, I heard this: ‘You know Jamie, I see you. I see you with your little pills and you think you’re so fabulous and so great. But, the truth is you’re dead. You’re a dead woman,’ Curtis told Variety.